Im thinking of just getting away | scream19's Blog

finally the day has come and i just want to get out of this house its really annoying, id rathere live soewhere else but i just cant afford it, i cant hold down a standard job because of the way that i am. Im aggressive to wards people and im just not got the motivation anymore. its like ive given up on life but i want to carry on if you understand me.

Its like i need to feel like everyone else normal feels. I dont need to feel confused or sttrange all the time. I need to talk to people but i know that im hurting them when i do, they never think about my feelings though so why should i, i mean i should be just like them less caring, really unreliable, unkind and less compassionate.

So i get to the way that they are right and i sink. Im in debt really bad, no job, no life and really depresssed, i caant see a way out except take my own life away because that is the only way.

I am brave enough its just i have to decide when, where and how. I know how, im going  to take an overdose and take vodka as well. But i just need to figure out when and where and then it will all be finished. So wish me luck even though i dontt need it.

Goodbye see you soon